I am fascinated by religion. Just today, I discovered belief systems I didn’t even know existed until I found myself reading about them. I have always felt a need to belong to a group of people. A tribe.
Yet there is always something about a religion and/or belief system which rubs me up the wrong way, which gives me the itch and turns me away from it. There is not a single belief system I have looked into, in my 47 years on this Earth, which has fully encapsulated what I feel about ‘God.’
So, what are my options? Walk away from it altogether? Find one which gives me a lot of what I need and compromise or set up my very own religion which ticks all the boxes in terms of what I need?
The problem with creating my very own tailor-made religion will be that yes, it will reflect back to me what I am needing but then I won’t have a tribe because what works for me very well won’t work for others and frankly, it would be arrogant of me to dare to even suggest that it might.
Plus, as I develop further as a human being I might have to jettison down the line what could be solid beliefs in the present moment, making what I have put together appear as flimflam which could serve to undermine it.
I am therefore replete with spiritual notions yet with no means to harness them to my own satisfaction. One size in terms of religion may very well work for the multitudes however it absolutely does not work for me.