Seeking Direction

My blog has been directionless for a long time and I have thought about closing it down however I set it up with intent and that remains, so here I am once again.

I decided to stop thinking, to let things which need to air come to the surface and I had some very powerful realisations. I am 48, nearly 2/3 of the way through the journey.

I fear death. I can’t see it as it’s still some way off however I know it’s there, looming just over the horizon. I have been thinking about my mark on the world, my legacy and panicking.

I know that I don’t need to worry. The stranger I smile at which lifts their mood and makes them feel that yes, I do wish to stay here keeps me going as does seeing a stranger smile at me.

I have too often felt apart from the world instead of being a part of it.

Writing keeps me sane. It’s no real surprise that my world fell apart when I figuratively put down my pen for a while.

I don’t know what direction this blog will eventually go in or if it will just randomly meander and that’s okay. It will go where it goes.

It’s nice to be back.

3 responses to “Seeking Direction”

  1. Glad to see you’re back, Jonathan! And how apt that you see how your “world fell apart” when you stopped writing. I was just talking with a friend about being in one’s “flow,” and writing is definitely part of your flow, my friend.

    I am also happy to hear you pulling yourself out of that “fear of death” thing. We do not die. That is part of the death-cult projections which make up the false-white-light CONstructs that we’ve been taught to believe are “real.” Nope. The smiles are real. And you make me smile!🤗💖

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